A Blogger Without A Cause

I'm back in the blogosphere. I've been pondering a return for a few weeks and then today I unexpectedly got the push I needed to return.

The push came from my new psychologist. (Long story short, I go to therapy as I struggle with anxiety and a few other issues around self doubt and self confidence etc - maybe I'll talk more about it in another blog. I find it really helpful, now I've found a good one, and I don't mind talking about it.)

Something that's been on my mind lately is that I need a hobby, an outlet for the creativity that, if it exists in me, has been suppressed as I've either got annoyed with activities because I lacked talent, or I'd just decided it was "unnecessary".

Every idea I've had has been quickly dismissed, except for the thought of blogging again. I've been stewing though over the idea of what to write about, a theme, a purpose. Did I even need one? I've been reluctant to be a blogger that talks about other people in my life, or one that talks about general day to day stuff. I have constant, mindless Facebook updates for that. 😏 So I felt I needed something more.

In a bit of a story of my life though, trying to find some perfect to write about, meant I ended up writing about nothing.

So today I was talking to my new therapist (my last one left the clinic) and as I was rambling, she interrupted me with a blurted "Do you write? You should." It led to a conversation about my desire to blog again, and a discussion about what was stopping me.

"I don't have a lot that's interesting to say" *shrugs*
"Do you need to have something interesting to say? Can it just be a chance for you to write?"
*more shrugs* "I guess I could try."

(Amusingly, this is the second time someone has been quite insistent that I should write more seriously. Last time, it was a psychic, but I'm a sceptic so I didn't take it as seriously as this time.)

So, with apologies to Seinfeld, a show I don't actually like, I've decided to actually write about nothing after all. Well, hopefully, not nothing, but things that stand out in my life at the time of writing. Movies I've watched, thoughts, my quest for hobby satisfaction, my holidays and my overwhelming confusion over turning 40 this year etc.

I'll admit, I like an audience, so I hope that if you read this blog it entertains you.

Next post may be about movies - La La Land bad, Sing good. (Hmm just saved you a read...)

Toodles and take care!