I Can't Talk, So I'll Have To Write...

In the grand scheme of how sick people can be, I'm not very sick at all, but I honestly don't remember me being this sick in forever. I've had bad turns like labyrinthitis but that lasted only a day etc, this current virus/cold/flu hit me Saturday morning and Wednesday it's still here with a vengeance.

I hate being sick, forget manflu, realistically there's nothing more pathetic than Courtneyflu. I'm totally flattened with an apparent fever (which a doctor's assured me doesn't exist yet I still feel on fire) and what is left of my working vocal chords are being used near exclusively for whimpering and making sad squeaking noises.

The worst thing is not being able to speak, I really like talking. I hate silence so have no dramas with filling the space in with the sound of my own voice nattering away about anything and everything. I'm going to have so much catching up when it comes back. I might just pick up the phone book and call everyone for a chat so I can test it out.

I feel bad because I was supposed to represent my office and give a presentation at an external client gathering today, however I couldn't do it, because I didn't think they'd appreciate me trying to act out our processes with hand puppets...as amusing as that would be.

Courtesy of Wikipedia

So I feel a bit guilty, I also feel guilty that I've left my team for the first time. Not that I don't think they can cope without me, but it's just my nature to feel like I should be there. I dragged myself to work on Monday and yesterday morning for that reason but I had to go home after I just felt so miserable. I was especially miserable as I was supposed to go to Duran Duran but I was too sick :( Woe.It did mean my Mum and Dad unexpectedly went though so hope they had fun!

 

One thing I've noticed while being home is that I have no idea on what to do on a sick day, this whole lying around in pyjamas or in bed thing is so foreign to me. I don't really know how to relax. I can't just grab a book and lie around reading it, I have to be doing something, even if it's just typing on a computer, I feel I'm doing something. I can't even sit around just catching up on tv, I just don't know how to switch off. I'm the same on weekends, I go stir crazy if we're at home all day. It's something I really need to work on. It's probably a good thing that I no longer have access to work email because I always check it. It's funny that someone who's as lazy as I am, struggles to relax! So for anyone reading this, how do you relax when you need to?

I'm too tired to write anymore, so I won't. I'll post something upbeat next blog :)